Last three days, I started thinking of a gal more 🙂 ….
Though I didn’t want it to happen 🙂 (as she was from other cast –> parents issue <– whom I have listened rarely and then regretted, in past :), though they sometimes go wrong on one issue 🙂 )
And still I was thinking of her.
There were 2 things going on in my mind –
1. I was telling myself to be brave and fight with those thoughts. Now I realized that – I was resisting a thought, which eventually was coming again and again. Though I knew what resistance does, this point didn’t pop-up in my mind in last 3 days. (Art of Living – AOL people will understand this better)
2. My kind, loving human heart 🙂 was sometimes telling me it’s OK and in fact good…. Making me biased towards that girl.
As thinking of leaving her thoughts was not working, I finally decided to tell her – what’s going on in my mind. And somehow I had hope that confessing this will solve the problem. And today I told her and I am free now J