See part 1 here – https://arpitk.wordpress.com/2010/10/17/i-proposed-she-refused/
As I was thinking afterwards how unromantic it is to propose somebody on phone ;). And it reminded me of communication training – written communication is easier than telephonic than face to face, to deal with ;). However courage was not a problem 😉
I thought of becoming normal after this last phone call, I mean to say, to behave as if this event is deleted, but somehow it went as if I am ignoring her!!!! It was really bad!!
Anyways, I got busy with 3 back to back YES!+, plus office and EXIT formalities, etc. Whenever I had even little troublesome time, I automatically became more busy! Grace 🙂 reminding me a sentence from ‘*Conversation with Master’ – “You are not alone my dear. All the problems are getting solved and there is some power with you who is walking with you through all the problems. Life is too short to keep solving problem one after another. Just wake up and walk ahead, problems will get solved by themselves,…..”. I didn’t took this as a problem though…..
I was in Bangalore then for Navaratri. It was all celebration time with Guruji there performing HOMAS, etc and thousands of people around. As I saw Guruji 1st time, after reaching Bangalore, coming in Yadnyashala for Ganesh Pooja, tears rolled down my eyes, tears of gratefulness – for giving me chance to serve, being his instrument and I don’t know what all…. I was all busy there too, even with Ayurvedic medicines ;).
And after that was GuruPooja course with awesome Bhanu didi. And she started like – this is the course just to relax, etc. But what happened then is interesting, unbelievable for me!!! I never ever had thought of this happening, even in remote possibility.
I started seeing her at least 5-6 times a day, in other gal’s !!!! The way it is shown in many
movies. Though it used to remain for 1-2 seconds only. In movies, it is shown as to show – You are in LOVE. This was crazy, really crazy :). I was like what is happening to me!!!! And what used to come to my mind was – “World appearance is unreal” – line from The Supreme Yoga – Yoga Vasistha. I was like, I know this…. then why it is happening still!! It was all so much fun just to watch my mind :):) wow 🙂 I was just in wonder 🙂
It happened for 5-6 days!! After I revised Yoga Vasistha (page 26 to 35 only), then mind stuff got subsided and I rested in peace. Thanks to Guruji for raising me to a level where I can understand this book!! I think 🙂
I realized it was because of Aasakti/aasaktchitta (I don’t know exact translation of these words, closest possible would be attachment). As told by my uncle – what is needed is Purity in Heart and Intelligence in Mind. And he said – I have pure heart, but lack of intelligence…… it was long back… 3 years back 🙂 ;).
So much learning :):)
Let LOVE be 🙂
Between, she started behaving/replying so rude (at least I felt so). And I was applying Acceptance point 🙂 Of course I was not to put my head under axe again and again (not remembering proper phrase).
*Conversation with Master – Discourse by my Master H. H. Sri Sri Ravishankar
P.S. – I don’t look funny the way cartoon looks here 😉 and She is also gorgeous than in cartoon photos 🙂