See part 1 here – https://arpitk.wordpress.com/2010/10/17/i-proposed-she-refused/
As I was thinking afterwards how unromantic it is to propose somebody on phone ;). And it reminded me of communication training – written communication is easier than telephonic than face to face, to deal with ;). However courage was not a problem 😉
I thought of becoming normal after this last phone call, I mean to say, to behave as if this event is deleted, but somehow it went as if I am ignoring her!!!! It was really bad!!
Anyways, I got busy with 3 back to back YES!+, plus office and EXIT formalities, etc. Whenever I had even little troublesome time, I automatically became more busy! Grace 🙂 reminding me a sentence from ‘*Conversation with Master’ – “You are not alone my dear. All the problems are getting solved and there is some power with you who is walking with you through all the problems. Life is too short to keep solving problem one after another. Just wake up and walk ahead, problems will get solved by themselves,…..”. I didn’t took this as a problem though…..
I was in Bangalore then for Navaratri. It was all celebration time with Guruji there performing HOMAS, etc and thousands of people around. As I saw Guruji 1st time, after reaching Bangalore, coming in Yadnyashala for Ganesh Pooja, tears rolled down my eyes, tears of gratefulness – for giving me chance to serve, being his instrument and I don’t know what all…. I was all busy there too, even with Ayurvedic medicines ;).
And after that was GuruPooja course with awesome Bhanu didi. And she started like – this is the course just to relax, etc. But what happened then is interesting, unbelievable for me!!! I never ever had thought of this happening, even in remote possibility.
I started seeing her at least 5-6 times a day, in other gal’s !!!! The way it is shown in many
movies. Though it used to remain for 1-2 seconds only. In movies, it is shown as to show – You are in LOVE. This was crazy, really crazy :). I was like what is happening to me!!!! And what used to come to my mind was – “World appearance is unreal” – line from The Supreme Yoga – Yoga Vasistha. I was like, I know this…. then why it is happening still!! It was all so much fun just to watch my mind :):) wow 🙂 I was just in wonder 🙂
It happened for 5-6 days!! After I revised Yoga Vasistha (page 26 to 35 only), then mind stuff got subsided and I rested in peace. Thanks to Guruji for raising me to a level where I can understand this book!! I think 🙂
I realized it was because of Aasakti/aasaktchitta (I don’t know exact translation of these words, closest possible would be attachment). As told by my uncle – what is needed is Purity in Heart and Intelligence in Mind. And he said – I have pure heart, but lack of intelligence…… it was long back… 3 years back 🙂 ;).
So much learning :):)
Let LOVE be 🙂
Between, she started behaving/replying so rude (at least I felt so). And I was applying Acceptance point 🙂 Of course I was not to put my head under axe again and again (not remembering proper phrase).
*Conversation with Master – Discourse by my Master H. H. Sri Sri Ravishankar
P.S. – I don’t look funny the way cartoon looks here 😉 and She is also gorgeous than in cartoon photos 🙂
These days falling in love and breaking up is quite common …… J never mind J
Think of this – How come people in love break up relationship? Break up happens only when love stops. Leave other reasons aside like – parents, etc….. If there is love, how can there be break-up? And if there is break up, was Love there in first place?
Broken heart simply means broken expectations, broken demands….. It’s obvious to expect from Loved one. Nothing seems wrong in it. But when expectations get paramount importance and it super shades Love….. everything ends. Just think, what you have expected from your partner on the day one……. is it the same thing you will be expecting after 2 years. As you keep knowing capabilities of your partner, expectations keep on changing.
Just let love be. Expectations keep on changing. And if you are behind expectations, you will just be grumbling…… If you are breaking up because of these expectations…. it in one way indicates, you have hope somewhere that somebody will meet up these expectations. And suppose with great luck, all your expectations are met, it will just bring comfort in life…… will it bring Love?
And other way, it all happens because of Love. You love YOUR expectations more than person and so is break up.
When love glows, it is bliss.
When it flows, it is compassion.
When it blows, it is anger.
When it ferments, it is jealousy.
When it is all “no’s”, it is hatred.
When it acts, it is perfection.
– Sri Sri